Do you ever get that feeling of being alone?

I'm not sure if it's being in my third year but i frequently find myself sat in my room feeling completely alone, despite the fact that i live with six people and have the best friends i could ever ask for, i almost never feel satisfied.

When i'm with other people all i can think about is my work and when i'm on my own i find myself constantly craving attention, How can i win?

Sometimes i don't sleep i just sit and draw my final collection in my head,

I find myself waking up at five in the morning and writing pages of notes about how i'm going to finish seams, embroidery ideas and fabrics i'm going to use.

I wish i could physically work as fast as the image in my head unravels, i wish i could feel satisfied with were i am and what i am achieving.

But i guess

Oh hello old friend.

Recently whilst thinking about my dissertation i started pondering over the concept that everything and everyone in life are grouped together by numbers.

My age is twenty two.

My university year is three.

And then i remembered this blog, Started upon the premise of a number.. 

103216554

Although it may have only been my ucas submission number and purely founded because i needed to submit an online portfolio for one of the universities, it became something i continued and enjoyed expressing my feelings and interests over.

Despite the fact that now i have completely developed and changed as a person since my last post over three years ago, i thought it might be interesting to continue this blog to express my thoughts, feelings and anything that interests me over what is going to be the most important 8 months of my life and hopefully beyond that into when i begin my career.

x

Just a quick blog, Hope you don't miss me

I am currently fond of these..

Christian Dior Haute couture A/W collection 2010

And i cant live without these..

Preferably with cherry tomatoes and cheese, Yum

I will post tommorow

I promise, Time has just not been on my side.. Despite how large my sides may have gotten.

Psst.

Today I made a new friend at work and they let me on to one of the most valuable secrets within retail, We're having a sale and i already know what's going to be reduced three weeks prior to the sale date, Naturally i am overwhelmed at not only the fact that i know something others don't.. But that a much smaller sum will be spent from my wages on friday!

Just a few things that I will hopefuly obtain..

 

 

Excuse the awful photo's, and most of the colours are completely off but nevertheless you get the idea..

Life is just one big waiting game.

Although waiting for things doesn't always prove a bad thing I was just sat here waiting for big brother to come on, Waiting for my friend to arrive, Waiting for someone to bring me a mcflurry when I started stalking vivienne Westwood as she was sat next to the person who interviewed my for Ravensbourne at the graduate fashion week, when I somehow started looking up this photographer called Terry Richardson.

And I can't decide whether I'm absolutely in love with his scandalous work and shame free attitude to sex, or whether I find it all a bit to cleche of a dramatic fashion photographer trying to stand out from the crowd. However all in all I'm currently a bit mesmerised by his work and how i did not recognise his name as I've clearly seen his work before, Here are a few of my favourite pieces.

All in all i admire his courage and love some of the ideas he uses in his pieces 

Oh I'm just feeling a little down at the moment, I spend my life working/eating/sleeping and I'm not entirely sure how people cope just living like that all the time.. I hope when I'm older all my aspirations come true and I get to pursue a career in something I love so that I actually enjoy going to work..

So in memory of all things positive, happy and continuing my list theme, I've decided to sit and pick out all the good things that have happened to me today:

• I managed to get a parking space at my dads shop, Nice tidy saving of 3 pounds haha ''Every little helps''...
• Mummy made a lovely healthy dinner of stir fried veggies with sweet potato
• I absolutely adore the way in which John James from big brother perceives girls, Far from the self loving person i imagined him to be when he went into bb (Quite ashamed to admit to be watching it but its actually really interesting analysing people)
• Oh yeah and I didn't have to stand on front cover saying hello in as many different ways as I can think off.. Bonus (:

Nothing amazingly exciting I do apologise..Hopefully the weekend will bring exciting situations that I can over analyse this weekend..Who knows!

Oh and I can't stop thinking about shoes, shoes, shoes. Every single type I want please!

Pay day in 12 days and counting...

The detail on these babies is amazing.

By the end of the summer I need.. Loafers preferably brown, Brogues, Cool ankle boots, espadrilles  and a million pairs of heels thankyou.